as the title suggests, today's post is going to be very random. i might just ramble on about something or post pictures of random things ahaha oh and probably not so exciting, as usual.

what do you expect? my life isn't very exciting :P hehe

i guess i'll just start with some pictures? pictures are always nice, right? haha

i came back from school yesterday and found cassie reading in her room like that. and i dunno why, but she just looked sooooo adorable! mostly cuz she's never in her room reading. she's outside in the living room watching tv.

and arthur was on, too! and she was reading! wth? she loves arthur! i was confused. but anywaysss she was cute :D

today, as usual, my physics freshmen group project met to work on our project that's due in three weeks. oh damnnnnnn. and we just finished collecting basic data...yeah, loooong way to go.

but our advisor's pleased that we at least have some data to look at, and he thinks that we'll be ok. haha. we'll see about that. well hopefully we will be.

anyways so i just took some pictures of the things we are doing :P

this is the wind tunnel that we built to test wind turbines. it took FOREVER to build this ginormous thing! i think it's approximately 8 feet long. although i didn't do most of the cutting and building stuff, i did help out >:D and we were really proud when it was done.

other people in our department want to use it for experiments haha. ahhhh physics nerds.

anyways, that glass part in the middle is the test chamber where we poke the turbine through the top, and there's a huge fan attached on the right side which creates the constant air flow.

and this is not it. we have two things going on at the same time. although this one was a lot more easier to start since we didn't have to build anything. and i actually like this one. except when the data doesn't come out the way it's supposed to -_-

this one is experiment on solar cells. our project's on alternate energy, so we're looking at these things. but i don't know why we couldn't just stick with one thing. and our advisor just keeps on saying that it's better to have a lot to speak about.....

close-up on the solar cells and the NI ELVIS that hooks up the solar cells to the computer and do all the measuring for us haha

i'm sure you guys are all so excited about reading physics stuff, but i'll talk about them more later and move on to something else HAHA

ok, so, i want a dslr!! i've wanted it for the longest time ever, but i just don't have the money. it's so freaking expansive!!! could someone just buy me one? haha jk. not really, but yeah, just kid. anyways im not sure if it's possible, but im gonna try to save up money during the summer to get one! >:) but then again, i don't know what i want to buy....there are three things i want, 1. galaxy s 4g, 2. polaroid camera, 3. dslr. obviously the last one is the most expansive one. bahhhhh i dunno...

and i also don't know if i want a canon or nikon

i was in search of reviews and found someone's website, and he was saying how this isn't good and that is good. and im just like yeah that sounds great! and he goes on to say, oh, but this ones great, too! sooooo which one do ya think is the best? make up your mind!

anyways, found couple that seemed nice

Canon EOS Rebel T2i

18 Megapixels

ISO 100-3200 (6400, 12800)

Full HD (24,25,30fps) + HD (60/50fps)

3.7 frames per second

3.0" LCD screen - 1040k

9 Auto Focus Points

Nikon D3100

14 Megapixels

ISO 100-3200 (6400, 12800)

Full HD (24) + HD (24,30) - Full Time AF

3 frames per second

3.0" LCD Screen - 230k

11 Auto Focus Points (no AF Motor)

i admit that i don't understand everything that's written there, but i do know some basics haha. ok i just came up with an idea to post everything whenever i find a nice camera! and you guys can help me decide on a good one :D

but i should probably be looking at entry-level, right? haha

anyways~ on to rambling~ teehee

i'm a quiet person. i'm quiet and awkward. i'm most definitely socially awkward. i don't understand how i could be this awkward around people. it's probably cuz i don't really know much about anything, so i don't have anything to talk about with others.

i'm really amazed to see people who always have things to talk about, and people who know so much stuff. i really admire them. that's partially why i'm starting to read more, i guess. well not really. i don't think reading classics gonna help me to not be socially awkward. might make it worse. but anyways, that's not the point. the point is that i'm totally and absolutely socially awkward.

maybe i'm more awkward because i keep on telling myself that i'm awkward. eh, i guess that's part of it, too.

you know, what's not within you doesn't bother you. so if you see a characteristic that you don't like about someone, you possess that in some way, too.

it's really true. it's not something that came out of my head or out of the blue.

like me, i don't like two faces. they annoy the hell out of me. but then again i know that i'm a total two face, too. haha. i really want to fix that but don't exactly know how to.

you see, when i'm around people, i'm shy. i don't like talking to people and being talk to. i just want people to leave me alone. yeah, i know. that's not a good way to live in a society. i'm trying not to do that, but our inherent nature and habits are really hard to change. anyways, and at work, i'm like a totally different person. like, wtf?

i don't even understand how i can be that different. why can't my consciousness choose instead of my subconsciousness?

i'm pretty sure if anyone who knows me in person saw me working, they would be like, who the hell is she? well people who don't know me well. wait, close people might say that, too. haha.

you see, i have this thing where my voice pitch immediately goes up when i'm talking to people i don't know well. like, wth is that? i'm such a two face, you know.

i realized it a long time ago, i think. but i don't think it was until recently that i decided that i was gonna change that. it's not that i'm gonna change myself completely, but i'm gonna try to fuse the two together haha. i dunno if that'll work, but doesn't hurt to try, right?

and another thing, i'm even awkward with people i'm close with. i don't think they never know when i'm worried about them or anything. except when i'm mad. i don't know. i'm gonna try to change that, too. no matter how awkward i sound, i'll try to say things :D

meh, my rambling wasn't that long, right? haha doesn't matter, i'm pretty sure you guys just skipped over it.

i came home and took some selca :) haha don't ask me why, just felt like it hehe

kya kya kya sorry about all these pictures. but hey, i had more. be thankful that i didn't post more >:D HAHA

well, time to end my boring post again~

thanks for reading XD ♥

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